Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Give me Faith

This is my new favorite song and i'm jamming to it all day long. 


Give me Faith 
by: Elevation Worship


I need you to soften my heartTo break me apartI need you to open my eyesTo see that You're shaping my life
All I am,I surrender
Give me faith to trust what you sayThat you're good and your love is greatI'm broken inside, I give you my life
I need you to soften my heartTo break me apartI need you pierce through the darkAnd cleanse every part of me
I may be weakYour spirit strong in meMy flesh may failMy God you never will 
Father, I want to be your instrument. Don't let my weaknesses get in the way. 
"My flesh and my hear may fail, but God is the strength of my heartand my portion forever"Psalm 73:26

7 But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. 8 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10 We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 11 For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may also be revealed in our mortal body. 12 So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.
2 Corinthians 4

Monday, November 7, 2011

I am an onion.

3 reasons why:

-My thoughts are so layered with: emotions, past, present, and future thoughts, thoughts from other people, thoughts from books, thoughts from websites, and then of course there are the thoughts that are constantly processing those thoughts and other thoughts that have sparked from the above thoughts... I could go on. The point is, I think a lot and sometimes too much.

-I literally think I've cried everyday for the past month. Somedays its like a little cry or a choked up tear, and other day its like a full out weep fest, but either way, the tear ducts have developed and I am my mother. (By the way i'm not depressed! I think bullet 1 just sparks bullet 2)

-Sometimes I feel like i'm being cut into by something outside of me... maybe God... maybe a conversation... maybe something I read... and other times I feel like I have these natural cuts going on that I wasn't even aware of but as each layer comes back, I see the natural pieces fall (this point might be a little too abstract, but i'm leaving it there)