I just made a list of things that are stressing me out todays. Its really annoying when you feel like you're living in the guilt of the things you're not getting done and not enjoying the things you are getting done. I wish I could just relax.
I need to escape from the academic scene for awhile. I'm starting to feel a little homesick. I've "lived" in Indiana for over a year now... Christmas break will be a breath of fresh air.
I don't WANT it to be Christmas break, because that means I'm half way done with my last year here. But I DO want it to be Christmas break because its means I'm half way through Sr. year.
Does that make any sense?
Being an adult was fun this summer, I want to do that again.
There are so many things I need to learn before all that though. And one of them is getting good grades. So now that I've tried to clam down my stress, I'm going to study for my Minority Group Relations test that's tomorrow then I can skype with Jill when she gets back from watching intramural football.
No to guilt, yes to joy and freedom. Got it.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Every morning this week...
...I've woken up to a post-it note that says "get good grades."
Its just a subtle reminder of my goal these days.
I want to be better at school. I know its not what i'm naturally good at and that God hasn't really gifted me academically, but I'm capable of a lot more than I've been acomplishing. And I've come to the conclusion that its what i'm called to for this season. I told a friend the other day that its ok for her to say no to some of the things she really wants to do but can't because they don't make sense academically. Those things will come into fruition at some point in her life, I'm sure. But right now she has to manage her time differently...
And then I processed my own advice and ate my words.
I've been saying yes to things in my time management and not being a good steward of my brain and working hard in my schooling when that is what I am called to right now. There ARE things that I can do right now and I do feel called to those things, but they shouldn't be my focus as much as being a student.
So if you think of me this week and want to know how to pray for me or help me out, ask me how I'm doing academically and encourage me to be a good steward of the brain God has given me.
Its just a subtle reminder of my goal these days.
I want to be better at school. I know its not what i'm naturally good at and that God hasn't really gifted me academically, but I'm capable of a lot more than I've been acomplishing. And I've come to the conclusion that its what i'm called to for this season. I told a friend the other day that its ok for her to say no to some of the things she really wants to do but can't because they don't make sense academically. Those things will come into fruition at some point in her life, I'm sure. But right now she has to manage her time differently...
And then I processed my own advice and ate my words.
I've been saying yes to things in my time management and not being a good steward of my brain and working hard in my schooling when that is what I am called to right now. There ARE things that I can do right now and I do feel called to those things, but they shouldn't be my focus as much as being a student.
So if you think of me this week and want to know how to pray for me or help me out, ask me how I'm doing academically and encourage me to be a good steward of the brain God has given me.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
CCDA Introversion time
Sometimes I like to blog my thoughts and try to be deep, and other times i just like to talk.
This is just me talking.
I'm in Indy for the CCDA conference. It has been great, but I am a little overwhelmed with all of the knowledge flowing through my brain at the moment-lots to process.
I woke up at 6:00am yesterday and headed down here and i feel like its been non-stop ever sense. The plenaries have been a little bland this year, but the basics are- don't settle for mediocrity for yourself as a teacher or your students.
But the workshops have been pretty solid. I've gone to 4- one on sustainable food, one on affordable housing, another on strategic neighboring, and the last one was about locating assets for a community.
So now everyone went to dinner and i stayed back at the conference center to chill alone and find dinner and feel a little independent before I have to babysit children 6:30-9:30 to fulfill my volunteer hours (which allowed me to come here for $25 as opposed to the $200something i would have been paying-so i'm thankful).
BUT, to place a to-go order at the restaurant here in the hotel, you had to order from the bar.
So i got a side salad at the bar. I felt out of place, but it was funny.
Now I just finished my salad and i'm chilling out in a hallway being introverted until babysitting time.
And just now, John Perkins started interviewing with a group of Wheaton students about 10 feet away from me. I'm eaves dropping. I might go over there-probably not. Perkins is such a champ.
This is just me talking.
I'm in Indy for the CCDA conference. It has been great, but I am a little overwhelmed with all of the knowledge flowing through my brain at the moment-lots to process.
I woke up at 6:00am yesterday and headed down here and i feel like its been non-stop ever sense. The plenaries have been a little bland this year, but the basics are- don't settle for mediocrity for yourself as a teacher or your students.
But the workshops have been pretty solid. I've gone to 4- one on sustainable food, one on affordable housing, another on strategic neighboring, and the last one was about locating assets for a community.
So now everyone went to dinner and i stayed back at the conference center to chill alone and find dinner and feel a little independent before I have to babysit children 6:30-9:30 to fulfill my volunteer hours (which allowed me to come here for $25 as opposed to the $200something i would have been paying-so i'm thankful).
BUT, to place a to-go order at the restaurant here in the hotel, you had to order from the bar.
So i got a side salad at the bar. I felt out of place, but it was funny.
Now I just finished my salad and i'm chilling out in a hallway being introverted until babysitting time.
And just now, John Perkins started interviewing with a group of Wheaton students about 10 feet away from me. I'm eaves dropping. I might go over there-probably not. Perkins is such a champ.
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